Quote from: Wędajihs on January 02, 2020, 08:47:08 PMStorms, tornadoes, and nefarious beings, sounds like something my head would have conjured up for sure. That storm sounds amazing, scary but amazing. I'm always fascinated (after the fact) by the wild and wicked storms the mind can make.

Yeah I know right. The skies  during storm dreams are insane. But also a wonder to behold.

Thursday/January/2/2020

After a couple of hour WBTB I had some pretty good recall for the rest of the time I slept. And I had a little bit of lucidity that I recorded in my lucid dream journal. After the WBTB I slept in as long as I could and need to hurry to get ready for work.

Friday/January/3/2020

Didn't sleep much at all.  I slept from about 12:00am until 2:30am with no recall. Then I was up until about 5:00am and went back sleep for an hour and had a little recall in that hour. But  no time right now. Will edit it in later when I get time.

Edit: I was way too tired when I got home so just skipped it and went to sleep as early as I could. But will briefly add.

Living Room Motocross.

I had my motocross bike in my current living room and I started riding it wheelies.  I was circling the living room around my tent and up and down the hallway while keeping the front end up, balancing wheelies. It was a fun dream. There isn't really quite enough space to pull that off in reality but in the dream there was just barely enough room to maneuver around the place riding wheelies.

Dream Note: I should note here hat I used to practice riding  wheelies on my pedal bike and my motocross bike. So wheelie riding I my dreams has been kind of recurring thing for a lot of years. And there was a time in my life when riding wheelies abnormally well in my dreams was a reliable dreamsign that would get me lucid every time it happened. And I had quite a few lucids that started out that way.

Roller Coaster

Also another theme that has gotten me lucid on occasion. I'm on a rollercoaster. There is something just not right about it and I am afraid something bad is going to happen. I am determined to get off of the rollercoaster. The rollercoaster is moving slowly while climbing the steep tracks getting preparing for a fast descent. I reach  out and grab the side of the tracks with my hands and am able to stop the rollercoaster form moving. I can hear people complaining but I don't care, I have to get off this thing. I'm sure disaster awaits. The others on the coaster think I'm over reacting but I don't care. I climb out of the coaster car and onto the walkway next to the tracks. And as I walk along the walkway the coaster continues on without me I know that all the people aboard the coaster are doomed. The rest of the dram is of me trying to find my way down the walkways back to the ground.

Saturday/January/4/2020

Managed to get to sleep around 6:00pm and woke up around 1:30am. There was a brief WBTB after a few about three hours or so when my little friend woke me to take her out. Then I move to the kitchen and slept the rest of the time in my chair. At first I had no recall but after some contemplation upon awakening I was able to bring a little bit back.

Meet The Parents

I have this completely fictional girlfriend and I'm just at her place hanging out with her family. There is not much to describe.

Underworld

A fantastical dream about a cave system underneath the sea. This was a rare non scary cave dream where the deadly mutant man eating  humanoids that I'm usually always aware of dwelling deep below the earth in cave dream did not exist. In this dream I never thought about the creatures I usually always know are there and always terrified of encountering.

My best recall of this dream is a moment of wonder, fascination, and contemplation, as I walk along the cave system admiring the complex beauty of the caverns and luminous vegetation that is lighting up the place all around me. And as I explore I'm thinking about the possible dangers of life under the earth. Of possibly getting lost in the sheer massive labyrinth and darkness. Or the possible cave in or becoming trapped. But  these were fleeting thoughts as I didn't feel as if I was any real danger at the time.

Sunday/January/5/2020

I slept close to eight hours, I think, without any recall other than for some Hypnagogia/ WILDng stuff early on. Then I woke up for a couple of hours and went back to sleep. I slept three more hours with a lot of amazingly vivid recall. But it was all just work dreams. But  oddly they were actually fun work dreams with a lot of weird stuff going on. And plenty of dreamsigns I should have thought to RC to. Especially since I was even thinking about the odd and different circumstance while in the dream. And was also thinking about dreaming and lucid dreaming at one point. Hopefully maybe some new recurring work themes have developed that I might recognize as being dreamlike in future work dreams.

Monday/January/6/2020

I slept about six hours without any recall. I was planning to go back to sleep for a while but things happened and I didn't get time. It's been a distracting day. I had to go do some errands and things didn't go as planned and ended up taking a lot longer than expected. And then since I was out near a Best Buy I decided to stop in and have a look at the computers. I ended up just doing it and I got a nice new laptop.

At first I was a little bummed that I spent too much on it. But after playing with it for a little while, and checking out what Netflix looks like on it. I'm just like wow. Didn't even realize what a junker the old Lenovo I've been using is until playing with this thing. So I'm pretty happy now that I went ahead and did it.

So been a little distracted with that, getting it all set up and getting my wireless headphones connected and all that.

This is the one I got right here.

https://www.bestbuy.com/site/dell-inspiron-17-3-7000-2-in-1-touch-screen-laptop-intel-core-i7-16gb-memory-geforce-mx250-512gb-ssd-32gb-optane-silver/6372667.p?skuId=6372667&irclickid=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&irgwc=1&ref=198&loc=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&acampID=615614&mpid=1808408

Tuesday/January/7/2020

I think I might be starting to get sick again. Lungs have been on fire all night, and just not feeling great. I sept for about four hours with recall just barely on the surface couldn't quite bring anything back. I stayed awake for about two hours and went back to sleep for two more hours. And had some recall during that period. I would have slept longer but I had to go do something early this morning. I don't think I'll have time to sleep any more, but I might we'll see.

There for a while there was a bunch of stuff about talking about dreaming and writing in my journal that I don't remember the details of very well.

HELLRAISER 3D

I'm watching a HELLRAISER movie that is being projected onto the wall of my living room. I don't really have a projector in reality, and it's not really like my living room. It's mostly just a fragment. I have a vivid memory of the puzzle box (that opens the gateway to hell) appearing in the scene on the wall. The puzzle box is very detailed and huge and begins to protrude out of the screen. I realize that I'm watching a 3D movie. And I believe that at any moment there is going to be a 3D pop out of those hooks on chains flying out of that puzzle box and ripping into my face. I'm not scared of it at all, believing it to just be a 3D movie nothing real. I think  it's a pretty cool 3D effect actually the way the puzzle box is coming out of the screen like that. I wake up before any chains come flying out at me.

Note: Some of the scariest nightmares that I've had were influenced by the HELLRAISER movies. Star Treks Borg as well, those things freak me out. I actually got lucid during an encounter with Pinhead once.

-There was also a fragment that I was working at some retail store. And I was trying to use an old style phone and trying to plug a land line into it in order to make a call. I don't remember who I was trying to call.

There was some other stuff that I don't know how describe. There was some mad scientist and his assistant walking around doing something, up to no good. But I don't remember what it was.

Note: I'm liking typing with this new keyboard. It feels kind of weird because it's different but it seems I can type more quickly with less mistakes. And possibly, hopefully, better on my wrists the way it kind of forces me to position my hands better in order to reach all the keys. Plus the letters on the keys light up so I can see them if it's dark. That's a feature I never had before.

Slick new machine you got there. Hope you're feeling better asap, although sick dreams can be pretty freaky, which is good if you like freaky.

Quote from: Wędajihs on January 09, 2020, 12:24:55 AMSlick new machine you got there. Hope you're feeling better asap, although sick dreams can be pretty freaky, which is good if you like freaky.

Thanks, yeah I like it a lot. Has all sorts of nice features.

Thanks, whatever I got hit me fast and hard. Fever I think. The boss let me go home early last night. I had to call in sick today, something I never do unless I really feel like I can't work. This is probably the third  time I've called in sick in the last four years. I've literally been sleeping nearly the last 24 hours except to get up take care of the dog periodically. And just going to go back to sleep.

Definitely like freaky but Kind of disappointing there has been no recall though, at least yet, sleeping so much.  I keep waking up knowing I was having a conversation but unable to bring back the details. Hopefully I'm able to work tomorrow. I don't want to have to call in again.

Friday/January/10/2020

Still not feeling great but better than I was Thursday. Now feels like a regular cold shitty but manageable compared to whatever it was that knocked me out for a day and a half. Still crappy recall. I got about six hours of sleep last night which is better than usual for a Friday night for me. All I remember is a little bit of a conversation I was having with my step dad about the policies of a bank. Influenced of course by all the more than a little annoying stuff lately of him needing me to deposit some checks for him in his bank account because he is out of town. And his bank making the task difficult to accomplish.

I did finally recall a few short but vivid dreams towards the end of my sleeping binge through Wednesday night into Friday morning but was feeling too shitty to write.

I know a lot of people who are having issues with banks these days. I think something is happening behind the regal banking scenes that none of us common folk know about.

Quote from: Wędajihs on January 11, 2020, 12:29:53 PMI know a lot of people who are having issues with banks these days. I think something is happening behind the regal banking scenes that none of us common folk know about.

I told him he should switch to the bank I'm using that is just down the road from the one he is using. I've not had any problems with them at all.

Sunday/January/12/2020

No recall. Not doing so well right now. Still really sick my heads in a fog and I think my little friend might be starting to take a turn for the worse. She doesn't seem right and I'm more than a little worried.

Monday/January/13/2020

Still no recall. Vaguely remember something about a work dream.

My little friend isn't doing too good. Was just all of a sudden, started Saturday night when I got home. I thought her breathing seemed off and wheezy. She seems to be breathing okay at the moment at least. But she is super lethargic and can't get her to eat anything. She ate some shredded up pieces of chicken yesterday but so far today I've not been able to get her to eat a bite of anything.

Tuesday/January/14/2020

I had a little bit of recall. I remembered a dream that my little friend was suddenly miraculously okay. She was up and running around and playing. And there was  a little bit of stuff about my step dad driving around in a large monster truck. And I'm pretty sure there was something about a wilderness trail.

I called off from work today. It seems apparent now that my little friend is in the process of dying and my heart is breaking. She can't hardly stand up without falling over. I can't bring myself to take her in to be put to sleep yet. She doesn't seem to be in any kind of pain or suffering. Just very weak. But is relaxed and sleeping peacefully. And she is still drinking water. I'm just going to spend the day and night with her wrapped in my arms and see what tomorrow brings. She is drinking water at least.

That sounds like just about the comfiest way for a dog to go, heart goes out to you and her.

Quote from: Contratonics on January 15, 2020, 12:24:30 PMThat sounds like just about the comfiest way for a dog to go, heart goes out to you and her.

Thank you, Contratonics.

My baby died today. Just a little after 12:00pm January 16th 2020. She died at home in my arms. I made an appointment to bring her in but she didn't last long enough for the appointment. It's better she died here at home in my arms than at the awful vet place getting put to sleep, so I'm thankful for that. Now she is gone and I can only see her in my dreams. My bike riding buddy, I'm going to miss you so much, every single day. Despite how awful it was to see you go, you were the best thing that ever happened in my life.

Oh no. Caradon, I feel for you. I don't know what else to say except honor her memory with all the tears it takes and bitter sweet memories that arise. I hope you are both reunited in dreams soon.

Quote from: Wędajihs on January 16, 2020, 08:48:24 PMOh no. Caradon, I feel for you. I don't know what else to say except honor her memory with all the tears it takes and bitter sweet memories that arise. I hope you are both reunited in dreams soon.

Thank you. Waking up today has been very difficult.

Thursday/January/16/2020

After bringing my little friends body to the vet to be cremated and coming home the reality of the situation started to sink in. And I was starting to freak out. She was nowhere to be seen and I just desperately needed to see her. And in a disturbing way a part of me wished I had not brought her to the vet and left her there. But what else could I do. I just wanted to be knocked out so I took a pretty large does of Melatonin at least compared to the 3mg that I normally ever take. I took 15mg and just lay down in my tent looking at some photos for a while before falling to sleep. Every time waking up and remembering she is gone and feeling the emptiness and just wanting to go back to sleep. So many times having horrible dreams of losing her, and then waking to relief and seeing her laying their comfortably next to me. But this time waking up to the horrible reality of it. I'm sorry... I might not even have gotten up except I'm expected to be at work today. I'm so glad I didn't go in Wednesday or Thursday and stayed with her as she kept getting worse.  There is supposed to be a winter storm here today too, possibly up to 9 inches of snow. I'm kind of worried about that if it's really bad trying to drive home tonight. Does not look like it's started yet.

I actually had a lot of recall last night. And even a little brief lucidity. I was in my tent nearly 15 hours.

It felt like the deeper part of my mind was trying to help me to feel better. And help me to get lucid. In my dreams yet, probably thankfully, I had not remembered she was gone yet. I had so many dreams of the most beautiful mountains. And for some reason there was so often this running theme of an extremely high cliff.

An RC Lucid Moment

I'm just feeling too lazy and shitty to put this in my lucid dream journal right now. And I don't think I'm going to count them even though I know I should.

There was one point where I was with someone on the edge of this incredibly high and scary cliff. I think about how scary the drop is and if I could even jump if I knew it was a dream. I knew that I could. I ask the person with me if they knew this was a dream do they think they could jump? And then I decide to do a reality check. I look at my watch and look away from it and look back. When looking back at it the numbers were all bizarre looking and scrambled. And I knew it actually was a dream. But the dream faded right away and I was alone in my tent for a little moment before drifting off again.

Weird Slap In The Face Dreamsign

I'm in a vehicle with someone traveling down a road. I'm having a discussion with the person about lucid dreaming. I don't remember the conversation exactly. When out of nowhere a strange vehicle full of people wearing Spider-Man costumes driving crazily side swipes the vehicle we are driving nearly running us off the road. And the vehicle full of Spider-Men goes racing off. The vehicle they were in is like a large jeep that is a convertible and the are several rows of seats. And every seat has someone that looks like Spider-Man sitting in it.

To the person with me I say. "Did you just see that? That's like an obvious dreamsign thrown right in your face if I ever saw one!"  I don't remember if I actually did an RC right then though I was thinking about it. But I was lucid after that. We get out of the vehicle and I look around for a few moments taking in the scene and watching the people that are walking around. I remember thinking to try and feel the dream and try to get used to the feeling of it. But that is the last thing I remember about it

Plastic Toy World

I had a really weird dream that I was a little plastic toy and my friends in the dream were little plastic toys and the world was a plastic toy world. It was so weird. And maybe even weirder even in this dream there was the high cliff theme again. I was at the top of the high toy cliff and watching my little toy friends going about doing their thing. Far below the cliff is this little plastic toy sail boat on some very plastic looking water. And I actually decided to jump off the cliff into the toy water which was not like real water but not solid either because I splashed into it. And later I had a dream where I was telling someone about this odd plastic toy world dream I was having.

Rooftop Parkour

Very vivid and long dream about climbing up onto the roof of the house. The roof of the house was elaborate in design and I was practicing parkour moves on the roof and mapping out running courses across it.

Friday/January/17/2020

Kind of annoyed my new computer isn't accessing the forum at the moment. Says page not found. But my old computer and phone are finding it fine. I think maybe the free trial McAfee that came with the computer is blocking it for some reason. Will have to figure that out. But At least my old computer is still usable to record dreams with for now. Got out of work a little early. Going to try and get to sleep early.

I only slept a few hours because of having to work in the morning. Not sure how many, maybe four hours or so. I slept until the last possible minute this morning. And I had to go out in shovel try and get out. I managed to get to work and back okay through the storm Friday night and Saturday morning. It wasn't too terrible.

-There was a four wheeling dream It could of ended up being one  of those that got me crazy air but. There were some jumps but I never got that kind of air off of them.

• I was at a house with a lot of people and I found ice cream in the refrigerator. It tasted really good and I couldn't stop eating it. I felt kind of bad it wasn't my ice-cream and I was intending to go to the store to get more to replace it.

-There was a dream I'm not sure what was going on but I was sitting up on this raised area and trying to imitate a Buddha statue. I think I was just being silly.

Saturday/January/18/2020

A lot of recall and a couple very close calls for lucidity. It seems like every since my little  friend died my mind has been trying to get me lucid. And recall has gotten very vivid all of a sudden. I slept in too long and don't have time to record this morning. I just want to get to sleep as soon as I can when I get home from work. So probably going to skip recording.

Sunday/January/19/2020

My first couple of days off without my friend. Trying to figure out how to function with her no longer here.  I'm just camping out in my tent. Will probably be spending a lot of time in here for at least the remainder of the winter. With my computer and Netflix. Watched some Netflix for the first time since she is gone. Just very relaxed and warm with my heating pad it's been very cold outside last few days and it's cozy and  warm in here inside of my tent. I solved the problem of being unable to access the forum from my new computer so I'm glad about that.

More very vivid recall and some lucidity that I recorded in my lucid dream journal.

Monday/January/20/2020

I slept only about four and a half hours. I was going to go back to sleep for a while but never did. More intense recall. I'm fascinated by what has been going on with my dreaming mind since my friend has gone. Ever single day so far since she has been gone extremely vivid recall with either some lucidity or very close to it. I wonder if this will continue. Or maybe if it's caused because I've not been eating very much, I don't know. Whatever is happening I'm thankful for it, hopefully it will continue.

I slept in pitch darkness for the first time last night since my friend has gone. I always previously had some sort of light on so she could get to her water if she needed to without trouble in the dark.

Ocean River Falls: Best Dreamsign Missed

My first memory is of swimming in the ocean. I get caught in a current that begins to pull me deeper out to sea. At first I'm a little worried, but instead of freaking out and fighting it I just go with it. I swim with the current and don't worry about it too much.

But then suddenly a rift (I'm not sure how else to describe it.) opens up in the ocean nearby, and another. As if the ocean itself cracks open and a crevice/rift appears and spreads open wide. The waters of the ocean rushes over the edges of the rift and down into who knows where like a massive waterfall falling into the earth. There is nothing I can do as I get sucked along with the powerful current and over the edge of the newly formed falls.

It's not as scary as it sounds as I dive headfirst over the falls, what else is there to do? It's a very long drop and hit the waters of a rushing river far below. But now it's not as if I'm under ground or under the sea. I'm just being washed along a powerful river across the land. I swim with the current and soon come to another massive waterfall. I swim right over the falls again diving head first over an extremely far drop. Again I hit the waters of a rushing river below and continue along with the currents.

I come to more waterfalls, again and again. Each time I swim and dive off over the falls to the rushing waters below. It becomes so exhilarating that it's not scary and I'm so confident of my dives.

But eventually, one of my dives ends on land. I land on my feet somehow and I have such momentum from the rushing currents that I continue to run. Just up ahead I see a massive canyon cliff. It's appearance is similar to the grand canyon.

My momentum is out of control and  my confidence so high. A part of my mind is telling me this is insane, but I don't care I don't want to stop. Another part of my mind remembers and knows I have the skills to handle the jump. But even so I'm not sure how I know because I'm even thinking of it as I run at full super speed towards the edge of the cliff. I have no idea how I'm going to survive.

I reach the edge of the cliff at speed and leap with everything I have. Whooooaaaaaa, I rocket into the sky ridiculously high over the canyon. Dizzying height I tumble through the sky. I'm incredibly exhilarated by the experience but wonder how I could ever survive the landing from this kind of height. I think maybe I can slow my fall but instead I pick up speed. Faster and faster I fall. The ground rushes at me and it's a hard impact. Expecting a lot of pain as I slam into the ground, but there isn't. I stand up, I'm fine. I wake up thinking whoa, again. So intense.

Wednesday/March/25/2020

False Awakening

Not a lot of recall last night. I took a nap and had an annoying false awakening. In the dream I have awoken from my nap. I get up and open the blinds in my kitchen. It's a really nice sunny day and I push the window open. I go back into the other room for a minute and I notice all this commotion. There are several family members sitting around a table outside the window having a picnic or whatever. Making all sorts of noise, laughing carrying on. Smoking and nasty cigarette smoke coming in the window. I get really annoyed thinking that I can't even enjoy having my window open on a nice sunny day without having to deal with this crap. So I close the window and shut the blinds again. Then I wake up for real and still in my living room tent.

Thursday/March/26/2020

Tornado

Vivid nap dream. There is a little I'm not sure how to describe about being on a little raft on an ocean inside of a building. And trying to, and trying not to be capsized by these huge waves coming at me.

Next thing I know I'm standing in the entranceway of the building and there is no water, but there is a strong wind. The wind picks up even more and I put out my arms and let the wind pick me up lift me outside. The wind seems even stronger and I'm getting pulled farther up and out into. At first it's kind of fun not scary but then I wonder about the wind and it's strength and wonder if I'm being sucked up into a tornado. I now see a tornado coming at me from the other side of the house. The tornado is advancing right in my direction. I somehow manage to lower myself to the ground and I get into a car that is parked there. The tornado has a very narrow funnel and comes at the car. The car remains stationary as the tornado makes contact with and flows right over the top of the car. But Once the tornado passes completely over the car, it stops, and comes back. And I'm thinking that I knew this tornado was out to get me. Then I wake up.

When I turn on my computer I see a headline that says strong storms and tornadoes likely tomorrow. That was weird though looks like the worst of the weather is going to be south of my state. But maybe rain and storms the next two days.

Friday/March/27/2020

Not much for recall. I only slept a few hours and I didn't WBTB or take a nap like I normally do. During which is when I usually get the most recall, at least lately. I was awake enough to stay awake so I stayed awake. Lol. Usually I get too sleepy to keep my eyes open.

there was a dream trying to come back and I almost had it, but then lost most of it again. I remember something about a dog, it wasn't my mine, though I was thinking about her in the dream. I remember that I was in a house and there was some kind of drama, something weird going on. Maybe otherworldly. I don't think it was another haunting but something of a strange nature.

Would the tornado dream be considered precognitive-ish?

Quote from: Wędajihs on March 30, 2020, 11:04:33 AMWould the tornado dream be considered precognitive-ish?

I'm not sure. Interesting coincidence though. A tornado did end up touching down in Arkansas that Saturday in a similar way as my dream. Doing damage to the entranceway to a mall. I got sucked out of a building like that. There is a photo of it in this article.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/tornado-tears-through-arkansas-city-prompting-curfew-and-national-guard-response/ar-BB11QVXU?ocid=spartandhp

Sunday/March/29/2020

Climbing

I climbed up the outside of a building feeling kind of like Spider-Man. When I reach the top my dog is there to greet me and I was happy tp see her.

Grocery Store

Very detailed grocery shopping dream. Don't think I'm going to describe it all. It was just grocery shopping, nothing too weird or abnormal happened. The dream was probably influenced because I was pretty hungry hadn't had anything to eat in probably 24 hours so I was dreaming about food.

Picture Frames

Strange dream about helping a skinny little old man carry a bunch of picture frames. Still trying to figure out why I'd be having such a random dream about carrying picture frames.

The dream took place at a house where I lived as a teenager. I was helping to carry the picture frames from the car to the house. I had my arms held out and I had as many picture frames hanging off my arms as I could handle. And so did the skinny little old man. The old man stops and says "How many of these damn picture frames do I have to carry!" Then he says it again. And I find it amusing for some reason. We get to the door of the house and setting the picture frames up against the side of the house to unlock the door when I wake up.

Puppy dream!  That's a nice surprise to find at the top

Quote from: Serenity on March 31, 2020, 01:52:16 AMPuppy dream!  That's a nice surprise to find at the top

Yeah that was I appreciate any of those kinds of dreams too bad that part of it didn't last a little longer though.

Monday/March/30/2020

Didn't have any recall, didn't get a nap or WBTB in either though.

Thursday/April/2/2020

Storm Run

I'm on the edge of a lake it's kind of dark outside. It's beginning to rain and storm and the wind is picking up. I have an inflatable rubber raft that I'm trying to pick up and carry back to my camp site. The wind is too strong and keeps trying to pull the rubber raft out of my hands. I finally decide to leave the rubber raft and set it down. The wind picks up the raft and blows it over but it gets caught on something that the wind pushes it up against. I decided it's probably fine there and leave it.

I head back in the direction where I believe my camp site to be, a trail that lead to a boardwalk that crosses another body of water. The rain has started coming down so hard at this point that the water is rising up over the board walk. And I can see scary dangerous whirl pool forming and swirling on each side of the boardwalk. I decide to make a run for it. I think if I'm fast enough I can make it across the boardwalk and back to my camp before the water rises too high.

I make the run and splash through the water that is rising just over the boardwalk. There are places where there is green seaweed style plants covering the boardwalk that make things more difficult but I do manage to cross without incident. On the other side I find myself on sort of rocky but also green terrain. Now the rain actually feels good and so does the running. I just want to continue running across the wet countryside.

The next thing I remember I'm in a kitchen inside of a house and parkouring through the kitchen and running across the kitchen counters. My step dad is now there and oddly, I can hear him talking about that he is planning to buy a tiger, two tigers actually he says. Apparently he has bought some new property that is like an old run down circus. He says he going to buy tigers and put on some tiger show at his new circus. I don't think this is a good idea. Not a good idea at all.

Crappy recall the last two nights. I woke up at 2:00am last night and tried to go back to sleep at 9:00am but couldn't fall back to sleep so just got up.

More crappy recall. Just some barely remember fragments I could tell I was dreaming about virus pandemics.

Yesterday was a bit of a distracting day with trying to figure out unemployment stuff and texting with family members about various things. It seems I'm approved for a weeks worth of unemployment. But no coincidence that I got a call from the work place a couple hours later trying to get me to come in for a few hours a few days a week. I told the boss at this point in the situation where things are getting worse and are going to continue to get worse for a while I don't feel comfortable with coming in and being around people. And going to wait a while longer and see how things play out.  And I know the only reason I got that call is so that the next time I request unemployment I will have to select that I was offered work and refused it. And that was their round about way of trying not to have to pay it. Which is stupid because if I had thought the owner didn't want to I probably wouldn't have applied for it in the first place. But the boss suggested that I apply for it so I did... stupid. But whatever. So I don't know if I will continue to get it or not.

Tuesday/April/7/2020

I had a litter better recall. I managed to get a nice nap/WBTB in and recalled a little bit.

Storm/Water Ball

Starts out at I'm at work but somehow switches to me being in a car out on the highway. I don't remember the transition. I stop along side the road and I'm taken by how beautiful everything is. It seems to be fall because all the leaves on the trees are very bright reads yellows and orange. I look up and through the beautifully colored trees I can see the mountains. And I see a peak that looks just like Pikes Peak. And I find it interesting that the mountain top looks just like Pikes Peak since I don't believe myself to be in Colorado.

As I'm looking up at the mountain I can also see the sky. The clouds become dark and swirling it's obvious a storm is brewing fast. It begins to rain. And I see this huge liquid ball falling down from the sky. I duck into the car to take shelter from it. And this ball hits the ground next to the car exploding water like a giant water balloon hit the ground and exploded.

Frgaments

• I remember a little bit of parkour stuff an jumping up onto things and practicing my back flips.

-I remember a little bit of being chased through the house by a robot. It wasn't scary it had more of a feeling as if we were playing a game, like tag maybe. And the robot was after me and I was trying keep from letting it catch me. The robot was big and powerful however. It looked a lot like the robots from the "Lost In Space Reboot." Silver metal, big, powerful, fast and agile. But fortunately for me, this one seemed to be the friendly one. Not one of the deadly evil ones.

That water ball storm reminds me of a prediction made by an 'indian' prophet. He said our demise would fall from the sky, a sickness that no one could cure. It would fall either as one of two colors. Each colour represents a different illness with a different cure. Your rain didn't happen to have color to it, did it?

Quote from: Wędajihs on April 10, 2020, 12:18:03 PMThat water ball storm reminds me of a prediction made by an 'indian' prophet. He said our demise would fall from the sky, a sickness that no one could cure. It would fall either as one of two colors. Each colour represents a different illness with a different cure. Your rain didn't happen to have color to it, did it?

Cool. No it didn't have much color, the color of water I guess. Maybe kind of a clear ball of liquid silver.

Yesterday I had a little recall about playing guitar and being at club watching a band playing. Forum was down for a few hours after I woke up and didn't write it down. There was also a little bit of playing with a puppy, not mine. It was a small little whit dog rolling around on a bed. The puppy ended up falling off the bed but didn't get hurt because it fell onto a pile soft blankets.

Last night I stayed up all night went to sleep about 8:00am and slept for a few hours. I had some recall of a strange work dream.

Tuesday/April/14/2020

Nothing so far. Recall has been shitty. Have not been very focused either. Have start working on trying to get it back. I was trying to go back to sleep for a while but have not been able to fall back to sleep yet. If I do I'll edit in any recall I have later.

Saturday/July/4/2020

Recall wasn't as good as I expected maybe too tired plus the added stress and distraction of being back to work again. I'm going to have to figure out how to get better at concentrating on dreaming while on the job. At a previous job I was able to focus on dreaming all day as I was kind of in my own little world. But where I'm at now is a lot more stressful and full of distractions. So It's a lot harder to maintain a constant awareness. I'm going to have to try to be that much more focused while not on the job to make up for it...

Space Craft

I'm a part of a crew piloting a space craft in some major sci fi scenario. our ship has crashed and been disabled during some kind of battle I guess. The crew and I are trapped on the ship and analyzing the damage and events that led up to our predicament. I wish I could remember all the details better.

Yukon Jack

I remember this one more vividly. In some party type scenario several people in a house. I see a friend on the other side of the room lighting up a bowl of marijuana. I want some too so I make my way over there. Friend starts talking about wishing he had some whiskey to go with it. I tell him we should smoke this bowl and walk up to the liquor store stoned and get a bottle of Yukon Jack. He tells me that Yukon is too sweet for his tastes. I explain that I've always liked it because the sweet caramelly flavor is delicious and goes down really smooth and easy. Plus it's one hundred proof /50% alcohol so does the job very quickly. ( when I was 17 18 19 I drank that stuff all the time. Someone introduced me to it and I just loved it. Especially out of an ice cold bottle covered in frost that has been sitting in the freezer all night. However, now days if I decide I want something to drink I stick to beer or wine. Now that I'm older can't handle the hard stuff, last time I tried I woke up in the middle of the night so sick I was like that will be enough of that lol. Can't believe once in reality a friend and I had a full fifth size bottle waiting outside the club to get in to see Slayer's South Of Heaven concert. We guzzled down the entire bottle in just a few minutes before they started letting people in to the show.  And I can still remember the show even lol. One of the most memorable concerts of my life. )

After a few moments of consideration my friends changes his mind and decides a bottle of Yukon is the thing to get after all. Next thing I know I'm in a  store looking at bottles of Yukon on the shelf and deciding on which one will be of sufficient size for the two of us for the evening. That's the last thing I remember before waking up.

You were in space??? Without me??? The nerve.

Well I was on the crashed ship anyways lol.

Mostly just a lot of work related stuff. But I remember a little bit about parkouring. Practicing doing flips and handstands and what not.

I've not been home much been doing lot of wandering

Saturday/July/11/2020

-I'm alone camping on a supposedly uninhabited planet when a group of humans annoyingly arrive in my camp.

-Eating several pieces of the most delicious pizza.

Monday/July/13/2020

-A lot of work stuff again.

-I started having some pretty depressing dreams about the dog that I've not recorded. One last night where I came home to find her laying in the drive way. She had somehow found her way back home but she was still sick and dying laying there.

-I was pushing my bike along the park trails when I encounter a very pretty lady that stops to talk with me. She mentions the empty basket on my bike and I explain to her about my companion that loved to ride with me. I start to wonder if she might think that I'm trying to hit on her or something which I'm not. I thinking about getting out my phone and showing her some photos. But she then tells me that she has seen me out here before with the dog on the bike. And I'm glad to hear that she knows what I'm talking about.

Wednesday/July/15/2020

On the roof of a really tall building. Fear of heights is kicking in and I feel like I'm going to fall down and I'm afraid to look over the edge even though there is a safe railing. But I start thinking about lucid dreaming and about how much fun I would have right now if this was a dream. I can see near by buildings that are even taller and I thinking about  how much I would love to leap to those roof tops and jump off the buildings.

Quote from: Caradon on July 12, 2020, 06:21:54 PMI've not been home much been doing lot of wanderingLike camping in another planet?

Quote from: Caradon on July 16, 2020, 01:20:27 PMWednesday/July/15/2020

On the roof of a really tall building. Fear of heights is kicking in and I feel like I'm going to fall down and I'm afraid to look over the edge even though there is a safe railing. But I start thinking about lucid dreaming and about how much fun I would have right now if this was a dream. I can see near by buildings that are even taller and I thinking about  how much I would love to leap to those roof tops and jump off the buildings. A missed oportunity for a lucid dream XD

Yeah being on an uninhabited planet sounds pretty nice about now.

Yeah I've been getting a lot of those close calls lately.

I was lucid yesterday night but only vaguely recall it and having that wow I'm dreaming feeling.

I didn't sleep much last night and didn't have much recall. I mostly quit thinking about it the last couple of days.

I had a really fun street racing dream on slippery ice and snow covered roads last week that influenced me to put in my Dirt Rally VR game to see if I can incubate more of those kinds of dreams. Plus helped to distracted my mind a little bit from all the shit. Difficult to be depressed while in the moment of some really intense driving. Not sure if it's good for my carpal tunnel issues though, gripping the controller. I don't have my driving wheel set up. Only been playing an hour or two here and there though. I don't want to get overly caught up in that.

I recognized a dreamsign and almost did a watch reality check to see if I was dreaming but I got distracted and forgot to.

I've not been keeping up on my journal very well for a couple of reason. Partly because of not being in a very good frame of mind and just needed to forget about it for a little while. Partly because of not having time to record. Because on work days during the week I've been waking up super early, like in the middle of the night as usual, then staying up three or four hours. and then going back to sleep and sleeping as late as I can before getting up and having to get ready for work. Which is usually another three four or five hours. And I usually have pretty good recall during these hours after going back to sleep. But I don't have time to record them because of having to go to work and I don't want to when I get home I just go to sleep for my couple of hours before my WBTB. ON the weekends I don't have time to do it that way and I end up usually just not sleeping much and going to work, unless sometimes Saturday night I get to sleep as soon as I can after I get home.

And the last couple of nights on my days off I only slept a couple of hours each night without recall and didn't go back to sleep. Yesterday I was going to but didn't ended up just staying awake.

Also I set up my driving wheel and foot pedals For my VR Dirt Rally game which allows me to drive quite a bit better and faster, and is incredibly fun. The most realistic and fun driving simulator for home use there is. And I've also been playing some VR pinball. I have my own personal pinball arcade lol. I own ever VR pinball table available and I promise you my VR pinball arcade is better than having a real arcade. Because the VR tables are every bit as real as a real table in VR, only better because of what the VR tables can do with their animations. They come alive in ways that real tables are unable to. And I like it because it's a very relaxing and meditative activity. And I'm pretty good at it, when I practice on a particular table I like. I'm number 38 on the global leaderboards on one of my tables with my highest score on that table. I was number 16 on the leaderboards when I first got that high score.

Playing my VR pinball and driving games decidedly has been a good idea. Even though while I still try to do my awareness meditation while in the games, it's still distracting from dreaming practices. But it has helped with my frame of mind and put me in a better mood which is probably more important right now. Because I've been in just a world of shit mentally and that is not good for dreaming either.