I'll have to go look at his to see exactly what you are talking about.

The only way at present to enter dreams into the statistics system is day by day.  Even if you do not journal your actual dreams, a dream journal entry is required in order to get a night's data into the system.

That may change as things evolve.

I'm guessing that he just never marked anything in his DJ as D, L, or F.  Which means, sadly, that his dreams will never come up on the roulette.  Guess I'll just stick with my "Inaccurate Count" disclaimer.

You couldn't go back and modify the dj entries in which you entered those statistics that you want gone? I can't think why that wouldn't work, but could be I'm missing something...

That might make the numbers go to D:0 L:0 F:0 as well, I'm not sure.

I'm apparently confused about what we're trying to accomplish here now.

The statistics entries can be changed any time.  To modify a particular date's entry, just hit "modify" for the post containing the statistics entries and change them as appropriate.  To "back date" entries, make sure to select the correct date at the end of the statistics line when you enter the data.

By the way - a 0 is not the same as no entry... if you are doing an entry for a night with no dreams or recall, make sure you enter a 0 or else it will be registered as a null - meaning no valid data entered.

I just don't like the count that appears under my avatar.  But at the same time I do enter some of my dreams and would like to enter them as whatever they are (D, L, or F).  But apparently I can't have it both ways.

Ahhhh.  Now I get it.

So you are asking for the ability to turn off the avatar dream count - right?

See?  I'm slow... but dense.  But I can eventually be taught.

Ah, sorry.  Guess I didn't explain it to begin with.  But then I didn't understand it.  I thought Robot_Butler had magically turned his off somehow.

how do i start a post???

SO how do I post a new thread.

Hello, mieksta.

You need to go to the board in which you want to start the thread.  Then click "New Topic."  Click the image below to see where that is.

is it a dream if u cn do wierd stuff but dont know its a dream or is it a lucid

Yes - most of us would count that as a dream rather than a lucid.

is there a way that i could input today one count for a dream of the previous day, even i am not entering a dream journal today?

Sure - just dial in the previous days' date. . . or whatever date it is relevant for.

Tuesday/October/29/2019

I think I'm going to have to get a new computer soon. I'm starting to have a hard time getting the computer to register the charging cord. Maybe that can be fixed I'm not sure.  Though I'd like to get something with a better picture quality for watching Netflix on. I like watching on my computer sometimes, but even though it's supposedly 1080p picture it doesn't look anywhere as a good as my TV or my phone. But I don't really  want to spend the money either unless I have to. Finally starting to get ahead again...

Slept from about 11:00pm until about 6:00am. I was out pretty good and never got up to take my friend out. I think she might have tried to wake me up but I didn't wake up. I woke to find her curled up next to me on the opposite side of me from when we went to sleep. That was probably a little tricky for her because she has a bad foot and we were in the tent without all that much  room, so I'm not sure how she got on the other side of  me without waking me up. Especially being clumsy with a bad foot. Did she climb over me, or go around my feet to the opposite side of the tent? Hmm. Too bad no camera, I'd like to see what happened there. I had a little recall.

Driving And Cigarettes

I'm driving my car on a side street near my house. I go off the road and into the grass, and up the side of the man made sledding hill on the school grounds. There is no snow in the dream so it's just a hill covered in grass.

I don't think that I drove off the road on purpose. I drive up the side of the grassy hill and I worry someone is going to be pissed off that I'm driving on it, or the cops are going to see me and pull me over. I just try to drive down the hill and back to the road. The hill seems very steep now and I'm worried that I'm going to roll my car.

I make it off the hill without incident. I'm now on the sidewalk  and my car has become my bike.

I ride my bike down the sidewalk and I see several pretty young ladies in bikinis sitting out in lawn chairs trying to get sun tans. I'm thinking that it's kind of an odd place to be doing that. In the middle of town along a main road, sitting out and wearing practically nothing. But I guess, as long as they aren't minding getting ogled by all the horny pervy guys that pass by.

I continue on and I soon come to a store. It's kind of weird, almost like a drive up. I ride right up to the door and open it and look in. There is a dog. The dog is a small pug looking dog. There are some steps leading upwards  into the store and when I open the door the pug dog comes running down the steps and runs outside.

Alarmed, I'm terrified the dog will run out into the street and get killed by a car and it will be all my fault for letting it out. I run after the dog (not seeming to even have a bike right now) I easily catch the dog and carry it back to the store.

I ask the store clerk for cigarettes. He opens the lid of a pack and removes a cigarette lights it and hands it to me. (I'm not smoking in reality   but I was thinking about it before going to sleep  while watching someone smoke on TV.)

I'm standing there smoking the cigarette that the clerk gave me, I notice it's already half gone. This isn't what I had in mind, I wanted to purchase a pack of them. The store clerk does not want to seem to give me any more than the one.

I beg him to give me at least one more, to enjoy later. I even say please. This one is already almost gone, and I'm not even getting the full enjoyment of it while standing here trying to convince him to give me more, this one is just burning away.

He finally gives in and hands me just one more, making it clear that's all I'm going to be able to get from him. I'm thankful for it and that's the last thing I remember.

A Couple Fragments

-I remember being on a huge theme park ride very high in the air. I'm attached somehow to a large spinning wheel and there is water spraying everywhere like some kind of scary water ride. I'm not that scared but I'm thinking that I should be. I'm thinking about how trusting it is, to put ones life in the hands of such a man mad construction.

-Naked in a shower. The shower is in the middle of a room and has clear glass walls. I suddenly realize that anyone could come walking in and see me naked in full view standing under the running water. But I'm only mildly concerned not caring very  much if anyone sees me.  (Heck I'd run around naked in reality if it wasn't too cold and didn't cause me to get thrown in jail. )

-There was a couple more dreams trying to come back to me as I was writing out my recall. But didn't quite get it. I think there was something about mountains, or a rushing scary river. Or both.

Wednesday/October/30/2019

I slept from about 12:30am to 7:30am. I woke up once to take the friend  out and to do a few minutes WBTB. She didn't wake me up at  all. Maybe the prescription food is helping her Kidneys. One can hope.  I did notice a couple of weeks before her yearly vet appointment that she had started waking me up more often during the night to go out. And the vet said blood tests showing maybe the beginning stages of kidney disease. I  don't  know much about it, but I was guessing that's probably why she had started needing to wake me up to take her out more often at night.

I had a good amount of recall. Most of it is all fragmented jumbled up difficult to describe dreams.

Hanging Out With An old Friend

An old friend was at my place, that wasn't really like my place at all. There was a lot to it and some things weird stuff about the neighbors that I'm not sure how to describe. But the running theme is that we were  going to watch some movies. "The Lord Of The Rings"  in particular. And kind of funny because I had the movies on VHS tape. I remember rewinding one of the movies getting ready to start watching it and the VCR was making a lot of weird noises while rewinding and I was wondering if the tape was about to get eaten by the VCR.

Alligators

Just a short but vivid fragment of a dream about being on some kind of small boat. A boat so small I have trouble keeping my feet in the boat and out of the water. I'm boating on a shallow swamp or marsh. And there are alligators everywhere. Tons of them. All over the shore, everywhere in the water. I'm trying to keep my feet in the boat to avoid getting bit. But surprisingly non of the alligators become aggressive. They are all just doing their own thing and not paying any attention to me.

Golf Course

I'm in a beautiful forest. The forest is  beautiful by how green and plush everything is. Everything is just so beautifully green and vivid. I'm in a clearing and leading away from the clearing are several trails. I choose a trail and walk along it. It's not far at all before the trail opens up to a large wide open and hilly golf course. The golf course is the same beautiful green as the forest. In the distance I see golfers on the side of a hill. I discover that I'm not really standing in the best of locations as the golfers are hitting balls in my directing. And all of a sudden I'm desperately trying to avoid being hit by a rain of golf balls. I wake as I'm trying to make an escape back deeper into the forest and away from the dangerous golfers.

The New Girlfriend

I have this beautiful new girlfriend. There is a lot to the dream, I don't know how to describe most of it. A lot of it is jumbled up in my head. Like one long fragmented dream trying to piece together. The feeling tone of the dream was a mix of very nice and kind of dark and annoyed. The dark annoyed part is because there was a long section of the dream where she is with me and meeting my family. And I'm very annoyed with them for the way they are talking with her and the things they are asking her. It  could have been a much nicer dream had the family not been involved.

Outdoor Home Theater

I'm watching something I don't even remember what it was. But I was watching it o this huge near movie theater sized screen that I have set up outside the house. Well it didn't begin outside, at first it was in a room inside. But   as dreams go it smoothly transitioned to being outside on the street. The  odd thing is, it's still as if I'm in the room. Only there are no walls. It's an outdoor room. I'm kicked back on a bed watching something on this huge screen. And I have the sound cranked really loud. Before I wake I'm suddenly worried that I might be annoying the neighbors with my blaring theater outside. And I glance over at their houses wondering if they are inside all pissed off at me right now.  And I honestly don't want to be disrupting their peace and quite. Because I know how much I hate having to listen to other peoples shit.

Thursday/October/31/2019

I slept from around 1:00am to 8:00am. I woke up at about 5:00am to the feeling of whiskers on my forehead, my friend waking me up and standing over me. So I got up and brought her out and did a few minutes WBTB. I didn't have any recall at that time.

I went back to sleep and recalled a dream about bringing my friend outside. I'm short on time at the moment and can't describe it in detail. But there were odd events taking place in my back yard in the dream. I need to start thinking of that as a dreamsign as there seems to often be something going on in my back yard when I dream about being out there.

In reality, Just before making this post I brought my friend out to the back yard and a deer charges right past us surprising us seemingly coming out of nowhere and leaps off into the woods. I did remember to do a reality check.

Recap For The Month Of October 2019

After slipping again, in October, maybe as an act of desperation, I started recording dreams again. Decided I would write in my journal whether I have any recall or not. It seems to be helping. Recall is gradually improving and with it my frame of mind has been a little better as well. Gradually getting back into the right mindset, and my focus on awareness work is starting to get a little better. I'm realizing how much I really need my dreams. I had one recalled dream that I thought about reality checking in  but got distracted and didn't actually do it.

I'm looking forward to two weeks off from work to spend with my friend starting the 4th of November, two days of working left to go as of this post.  It will be more relaxed than the two weeks I took off at the end of May. In May I took her adventuring on the bike all over the city and  the parks for two weeks. We had really nice weather the entire time it was a blessing. This time it's going to be too cold for taking her biking unfortunately. But it should be okay for walking some. But she has a bad foot and may not be able to walk too much. We'll see.

Friday/November/1/2019

I slept from 12:30 am to 4:00am. I had the alarm set for 4:30am since I work early Saturdays but my friend wanted me to get up at 4:00 to take her out. I decided it wasn't worth trying to go back to sleep for a very short period so just stayed up. I did have a little recall of a weird freaky dream but I don't recall it very well. I think it's often those early hour dreams that can be the most bizarre.  That's how it seems anyways.

Demonic Mutant Babies

I wish I could remember the dream better. But I'm happy I was able to recall it at all. I wasn't sure I would recall anything sleeping such a short period of time. But going to sleep I was hopeful.

I remember traveling in a vehicle with an old man with white hair and a white beard. He is wearing farmers blue jean overalls. He kind of reminds me of uncle Jesse from the "Dukes Of Hazard" TV show."

We make our way to a building that is like an old abandoned hotel. There was a running theme, or plot, I just can't remember the story behind the events. I'm conversing with the white bearded old man as we make our way to the abandoned hotel but I can't bring back the details of the conversation.

The dream has a very dark feeling tone to it. At the hotel, I remember a woman being there and she is talking about all the empty rooms, and how she is going to be taking up residence in one of them.

Next thing I know the woman is giving birth to demonic mutants, not just one but many of them. And the demon babies are over running the building. I have a clear memory, just before waking, of looking into her room from the hall just outside her door. From my angle, I can't see her face because she is partially obscured by the entrance of the room blocking my view.  But I can see she is laying on the bed. I can see one of her arms laying against her side. Her fingers are abnormally long with slimy webbing between the fingers. And her fingernails are long and claw like. And I realize that she is not just giving birth to mutant demon babies, that she is some kind of mutant demon herself.

Edit

More dreams are trying to come back to me. There was something about a Mettallica concert. And I remember them being old in the dream, as of course they are getting old now. At least older than me at my age of 48. But the memory of the dream is very vague.

Saturday/November/2/2019

I feel like I might be picking up the shit cold  that's been going around. Somehow I just knew I'd start getting it going into my two week vacation.  Though on the positive side, if I am getting it and it gets bad, at least I won't have to work through it. But I've been looking forward to this quite a bit and it's not exactly how I wanted to spend it, feeling like shit, when it's supposed to be a period of feeling good and enjoying time spent with my friend.

I slept from about 6:30 PM to 1:00 am. It was nice being able to set my clock back an hour when I got home from work so that I could get to sleep a little earlier. This is the first time in my life that I've woken up for the day before daylight savings time officially switches.

I wasn't sure I was going to have much recall as I was extra tired from not sleeping the previous night, and feeling like I'm starting to be sick. And also a little distracted because of being excited and preparing for my off time. Stocking up food and snacks and all that jazz. And I was excited to wake up in the morning to get my final work shift for two weeks over with. But I ended up having pretty good recall. Felt kind of like a turning point in my recall actually, as I was getting some really vivid and  intense dreams. And one was partially lucid, I think.

Emotion Explosion/Semi Lucid

Very intense emotion filled dream. If I had been fully on my game I would have become fully lucid in this dream. But I think I was somewhat lucid actually. I felt aware and I had that familiarity of the situation like something I'm use to experiencing.  But I didn't have the oh wow moment of sudden realization.

I was upset about something, extremely upset. Upset to the point of bursting. I don't remember exactly what was going on prior to the moment of explosion, but I remember the feeling of it. And I know it was a culmination of all the shit in my waking life that has been messing with my head.

And in the moment, all I wanted was to get away. Needed to get away so badly it all welled up inside. Off the planet out of the galaxy, leave this fucking place.

I leaned backwards arms out wide. And so much emotion came flowing through me. I'm propelled into the  sky with such  extreme force,  the earth falling away. Moving so fast, everything a blur. High and high, Within seconds I'm floating on the edge of the atmosphere, looking into space, and the view of the planet far below.

At this point a feel semi lucid, as I've rocketed into the sky so many times in lucid dreams. I feel very familiar with the feeling. All the awful emotion that caused my explosion into the sky melts away and I relax into bliss. I relax and let myself free fall backwards, tumbling backwards and end over end back towards the earth as I am so fond of doing in lucid dreams. I have no fear of being harmed hitting the ground. I know that I won't be.

After a period of tumbling back towards the earth, I have difficulty in continuing my free fall. Gravity has lost it's pull on me, and I remember occasionally having trouble with this in the past. I'm suspended in the air, floating, no longer falling. I'm attempting to use force of will of TK on myself, to move myself back to the ground. I wake in the process of doing so.

Lord Of The Jurassic Jungle (A Parkour Dream)

Another very intense dream. This one was a little scary and wonderful at the same time. I'm basically Tarzan lord of the jungle. But not just any jungle. A Jurassic jungle packed full of giant and dangerous dinosaurs. Some are my friends, but many are also trying to devour me.

A massive green jungle full of life. Towering trees and thick vegetation. I run and leap and swing acrobatically through the highway of limbs and vines high above the jungle floor.

Despite my speed, height, and skill of agility, at every turn I meet a narrow escape from massive  jaws of prehistoric beasts  attempting to clamp down on me and rip me to shreds and have me as a meal. I am however confident and feel that I'm in full control. Nothing can stop my exhilarated run through the jungle highways.

I see a beast that I know is a friend, I swing and leap from a vine doing a flip through the air and landing on the back of this massive long necked creature. Somehow I'm aware that there is a type of war going on, between the Jurassic inhabitants of the jungle. Between the more peaceful that are trying to defend themselves against the deadly violent.

I sense an anger in the beast I ride upon, and see it's head turn, looking in the direction of danger.  Many others join us as we begin a charge into battle.

I wake and I had been sleeping for only four hours. Even though hardly no sleep the previous  night, the dreams were so intense and vivid I felt wide awake after coming out of them. I wake up my friend and take her outside. Despite feeling wide a wake I make myself go back to sleep. It's only 10:30pm after all and I need to work the next morning. I probably would have stayed up for most of the rest of the night had I not need to work in the morning.

I go to sleep and have more vivid recall. But nothing like the previous dreams intensity. I had a very vivid and detailed dream about being at work. I have a different job than I use to , and I'm kind of looking forward to getting lucid more during dreams of this place of employment. I have a couple of times, randomly during my years of away time from the forums. But never when purposely working  to induce them.

Ship Wrecked

I'm shipwrecked somewhere on an island. I have my camping gear an laying in my tent with my friend. Completely lost and unsure what to do. I have a CB type radio. I call "May day! May Day!"  Trying to find help. A voice on the radio answers. I lay there talking to this voice on the radio for a long time. The voice is a rescue ranger and he seems stern  and judgmental. Not all that nice, like a scolding adult to a child. I have no idea where I am, all I can say is I'm lost somewhere on an island. And they have no idea where to look for me. We talk for a long time. I remember some of the details of the conversation but not all of them. Some of it was about my friend being sick and dying. And I see her chocking and struggling to breath, I fear the stuff they saw growing in her lungs is about to start suffocating her and I won't be able to anything but watch helpless as she slowly suffocates to death. But after a few moments she is okay again.

I wake and see that it's almost 1:00am (my alarm was set for 1:30am) I decide to just get up, make some coffee, and contemplate my dreams.

Sunday/November/3/2019

I slept from about 730:pm to 1:00am. I didn't have a whole lot of recall. I recalled a little bit of a weird dream about opening a store on the outside surface of a space station. The dream had an interesting feeling tone to it. I had planned to get to sleep for a few more hours early in the morning but didn't end up doing so. As I write this it's about 3:30pm  Monday afternoon. I plan to go back to sleep soon, probably wake up no later than midnight, probably much earlier than that.

My schedule is going to be  even  more abnormal than usual since this is day #1 of  16 day break and I don't have to be anywhere. And I like the lonely quiet hours when the rest of the world is sleeping. Also, I may not sleep any more than necessary a lot of the time just enough  to be awake enough to enjoy my off time. I want to just enjoy as much of it as possible, not sleep through it all. So probably just short bits of sleep here and there when I start getting tired. We'll see.

Was a little bit distracted today, drank way too much coffee when I got up. But I was celebrating and trying to enjoy the best moment of my 16 day break to the fullest. The early hours of the first morning, enjoying that magical feeling of waking up on the first morning, getting high on caffeine and knowing I don't have to be anywhere  for two fricken weeks and my friend still here to enjoy it with. Too bad life could not always feel as blissful as those kind of moments.

Monday/November/4/2019

I don't seem to be sick as I mentioned I thought I might be getting. (Thankfully.) Maybe It's just some odd fall allergies combined with being so tired from lack of sleep that made me feel like a cold was coming on. Sinuses have definitely been feeling kind of weird the last few days. But otherwise (at least so far) I'm not feeling sick at all so I'm happy about that.

I slept from about 5:30pm until 8:00pm I woke once with some recall but I didn't take notes and don't remember what it was. I stayed up all night. It was kind of nice getting a little nap in there it made me feel like I was able to sneak in an extra day, turning Monday into two days.   I started getting tired and went back to sleep around 6:00am until about 9:00am and had a little recall.

Family Shit

I was telling someone how I really feel. I'm not going to describe the conversation in detail because I was pissed off and not being very nice at all and I don't want to be offensive to any readers. But needless to say I'm not too happy with some of my family in waking life or in dreams. As has probably already been noticed in previous posts. But actually I'm fine with them as long as they just stay away from me and leave me alone.

No Fucking Music

Lol. Actually not sure what to title this dream it's pretty random and nothing really. I'm in a van on the passenger side. Someone else is driving. I'm not sure who it is. We have picked up a male passenger and are giving him a ride somewhere. The passenger complains about how quiet it is and the driver reaches for the radio to turn it on. I'm like "Fuck no! Don't even fucking touch that dial!" I have a real thing about having to listen to other peoples music that I don't want to hear. There are few things I dislike in life right now than having to listen to other peoples noise. And all I want is peace and quiet. I have my noise cancelling headphone on almost constantly when I'm not at work nowdays so I don't have to hear anything other than what I want to hear.

The radio stays off and we reach our destination and drop the guy off. Not sure what to describe. My awareness kind of follows him as he enters the building like I'm watching a movie. There are glass revolving doors that he pushes through, they stick a little and then spin the way they are supposed to allowing him to enter. There is a desk with like a check in clerk at a hotel. Off to the side there is a swimming pool with a few people sitting around it. I have no idea what the purpose of being here is I'm just here.

I wake up and it's about 8:00am I decide to get up and I've been up every since. It's  almost 3:00pm as I type this now and I'm wide awake.

Tuesday/November/5/2019

I slept from something like 9:00 or 9:30pm until 2:30am I wanted to just stay up all night but was getting sleepy. Woke up to my friend pawing at my arm to wake me up. I wanted to get up at 2 but didn't feel like setting an alarm. It took me a few minutes to bring back some recall. I woke up kind of suddenly and the dreams were trying to slip away but they were right near the surface of recalling. After a few minutes I was able to bring some back. It's about 11:00am as I type this. I'm already kind of tired I might sleep more yet today. I'm not sure yet.

I've been kind of distracted with the excitement of having time off. Time to try and start settling down and relax, and concentrate on just enjoying these moments and staying in the moment. And cut back on the coffee a bit. Drank way too much the first two days off. Monday and Tuesdays are my normal days off,  so today is my first day off that I would normally be scheduled to work. So I guess, in a way, you could say, today is the official first day of my vacation. The first day of the first work week.

Guitar

Interesting that last night I had a dream about not wanting to hear music and the next night I'm dreaming about playing music. But then the experience  of playing music is far different than the experience of having to listen to music that you don't want to hear.

I'm in a room and there are several people standing around playing guitar. I feel kind of out of place as I'm not playing. I'm thinking  that I  should be on the drums because there are already so many guitarists playing. But I've never been much of a drummer that was my brothers thing. Nevertheless I stand in the middle of a circle  of guitar players. And I start making motions with my hands as If I'm playing air drums along with their guitar playing.

But then that little bit of the dream is over and it's time for me to get out my own guitar and start jamming. I'm kind of excited about playing actually. I feel like I miss it quite a bit. And even though it's been a long time, I feel confident that I can play and something will come to me. I can actually feel the music trying to well up from inside me wanting to start flowing out. I just know once my fingers are on the fret board I'm just going to feel it flow out.

I open my guitar case and the strings are messed up. I realize that I'm going to have to put new strings on my guitar before I will be able to play. So I begin the task of putting new strings on it. And as you might guess, putting new strings on a guitar in a dream is one of those things that is just not going to go so well and I don't end up playing.

I lose a part of the memory and next thing I remember clearly is being in a bathroom and the door is slightly cracked. Someone is just outside the door and let them know it's occupied. It's a woman outside the door and she tells me about something but I don't remember exactly what it was  that she was talking about.

Piano

I remember a fragment about playing the piano.

(In reality I only kind of sort of played the piano. I had a keyboard I always played with the piano sound on. I could play it okay as long as the stickers were on the keys showing me where the notes were so I could easily hit the proper lows and high notes at the same time and I was pretty good at playing improvisational with it. But I never had any kind of lessons so didn't really know what I was doing. Just making shit up. I actually love the piano a lot and wish I had focused more on that as a kid than the guitar.)

Anyways in the dream I was playing the piano and I was trying to make up piano chords since I don't know any real chords I was just  trying to make some up that sounded good. I was being pretty successful and it sounded beautiful. And all I remember is playing for a little while.

Forgot My Friend

I'm walking along on some street, destination unknown. I suddenly realize that my friend is not  with me and I'm not sure where she is. I left her somewhere with someone and forgot all about her. How could I have forgotten. I'm so upset with myself and scared/worried.

I turn around and run. Trying to find my way to where I left her. I run so fast down the street. Super fast dream running down the street in a near panic. I come to a school. I don't know why I believe I had left her with someone at the school. Walking down the halls of the school I find my brother.  A sense of great relief as  I see that my brother has her and is carrying her. He hands her over to me and I  carry her in my arms as I leave the school.

walking back the way I came with my friend in my arms. I walk down a narrow pathway between two walls like a corridor, or very narrow ally. The narrow walkways is very gross and dirty. Garbage everywhere slimy and rotten spilling over and making the ground slippery with liquid rotten food slime.

Wednesday/November/6/2019

I slept from a little after 6:00pm to 10:00pm. I was planning to get up at midnight but my friend wanted me to get up. I should have went to sleep for a couple more hours to get some recall but I didn't feel like it. It's about 1:30am as I'm typing this.  I'm guessing I'm probably going to be getting tired again before the day is over and I'll have to sleep a little more. If I do I'll edit in any recall I get.

I remember waking up once between 6:00 and 10:00pm with recall and was thinking about taking notes on what I remembered but I fell back to sleep before I took any notes. Now I don't remember it. I do have a vague memory of some martial arts sword play going on. I'm pretty sure I was having a dream influenced by the "Into The Badlands show I was watching on Netflix"

Edit: Something came back to me a moment after posting. There was a snow storm. I just remember it was the beginning of the storm. Maybe an inch or two of snow on the ground and the snow was coming down hard. And I knew it would be a lot. My mind probably remembering last winter and anticipating what might be to come this winter. Some are saying they expect a similar winter this season. But who knows. I have a hard time buying into any kind of predictions that far into the future when they can't hardly predict today and tomorrows forecast.

Edit: I went back to sleep at 6:00am and slept for an hour and a half. I recalled a brief work dream and my friend was waking me up again. This time she was waking me because she was hungry and wanted something to eat. My fault I should have given her something before going to sleep. I would have slept probably another hour or two but not now.

Oops accidentally skipped ahead a year on the date of my previous post lol. Fixed.

Thursday/November/7/2019

I slept from 6:00pm to 9:30pm and woke up without recall. Then stayed wake and slept from 5:00am to 7:00am. When I went to sleep at 5:00am  I was tired and feeling pretty shitty mentally. I was in the mood to just sleep for as long as possible and maybe have some good dreams to put me in a better mood. But my friend didn't seem to want to let me sleep. I had a little bit of recall though.

Pikes Peak

Just a fragment really. But it felt good being back on the mountain. Maybe my mind was trying to help bring me something that felt good.

I was hiking up the familiar Bar/Pikes Peak Trail. I remember someone being there and talking with them about the camp site and fire pit  I made a little ways off the main trail. (Which I did in reality.) I decided to continue up the trail to the top of the mountain. I'm remember a little more as I type. I remember a discussion with same person I was talking about my camp site. The person was talking about climbing a lot of 14,000 footers which Pikes Peak is one of.

Vivid recall of making my up the final stretch to the top of the mountain. (It's different from the actual mountain.) I'm climbing up a series of switchbacks that are wide and snowy. They rise steeply and level off for a bit, and rise steeply again to level off again. I go through several rising  and leveling switchbacks wondering where the last one is. Finally I make it over the last one of them and come to  the top of the mountain.

From a scenic overlook I look out over an amazing beautiful mountainous landscape.

Friday/November/8/2019

All I remember so far is a couple of fragments. One was of being in a  public bathroom and there were several women in the men's bathroom. I thought it was pretty strange and for a moment I  thought maybe I was in the wrong bathroom but I wasn't. I thought it was weird but shrugged it off not really caring. Too bad I didn't remember to RC since weird bathroom stuff is a common dreamsign.

I remember a fragment of a snake being in the house. I though that maybe it was a poisonous snake because e of it's coloring. The snake didn't look like any that would normally be in this area. More like something t  at might be found in a jungle maybe.

There Felt like  a lot of dreams close to the surface that slipped away maybe something else will come back.

Saturday/November/9/2019

I slept somewhat more normal hours. From about 12:30pm until about 7:30am I woke up a couple of times for brief WBTB's My friend waking me up one of those times to go out. The rest of the time she slept pretty well. It's kind of cute the way she just reaches out with a paw  to paw at me to wake me. Doesn't make any kind of sound. I didn't have much of any recall until my final waking. I had been trying hard to concentrate on the awareness work all day. I felt kind of determined to sleep until I had some kind of recall.

Parkour And Climbing

First bit of recall is running, parkouring through the city of a foreign land. I remember leaping off stairways at speed, and running along sides of buildings.

At some point my step brother arrives in the scene and it becomes not just a parkouring running dream but a climbing parkouring dream. There is a particular building with very little in the way of foot holds or hand holds. And my step brother is saying that the building is an impossible run/climb. I have a memory of already parkouring this building and I explain to him  that it's not a problem I can handle it. And make a run for the building to demonstrate.

It's a little bit scary part of the dream actually. Normally this kind of climbing in a non lucid would be terrifying for me, having a waking life fear of heights. Sometimes I have very scary climbing dreams of clinging for my life against a building or steep face of a cliff.  But in this dream I was only slightly nervous about it, being mostly confident in my abilities.

I run towards the building and leap onto the side of the wall. There are very tiny ridges that I can barely dig my fingertips onto, and get my toes on. But I use these little ridges to make my way up the side of the building with my step brother close behind.

My step brother is talking to me and I am well focused on the climb, putting everything into my concentration. As  this is a difficult climb and the slightest miscalculation will lead to a fatal fall. I'm actually wondering how my step brother is so easily following so close behind.

My step brother grabs my arm and I freak out a little telling him not to touch me and possibly breaking my hold on the wall.

We finish the climb and look over the view of the  city. There is one towering structure that stands high above everything. I point it out and tell my stepbrother that building is our next challenge. But we will climb it from the inside as if it's a hollowed out building and we will climb the inside walls to the top.

Next thing I know we are running and leaping across the city again parkouring our way to the tallest of the buildings.

Once arriving at the target challenge another challenge is presented. The challenge of getting inside unnoticed as this climb is often sought after by climbers, and is an illegal climb.

I come up with a simple plan of distraction to distract the authorities as we slip inside unnoticed. I cause the alarm of a nearby car do go off and make all sorts of noise. This loud car alarm draws the attention of everyone nearby. While everyone is distracted my step brother and I open a small door on the side of the building and slip inside.

Outside we can still hear the noise of the car alarm. Inside there is a group of other climbers already there and preparing to make the climb with us. They are members of an extreme climbing/parkour club that I now remember that I am a part. I wake before the climb actually begins.

Bump to keep the spam bot off the home page. Probably bump up a few journals again soon to knock that shit down farther.

I was thinking about trying to stay awake all night in some kind of feeble depressing attempt to hold back time. Or at least slow it down. But I'm getting kind of sleepy I don't think I can. And I need to pick up a couple things in the morning. Better to get some sleep.

Sunday/November/10/2019

I think it was around 2:30am when I went to sleep. And I got up just before 7:30am. I would have slept a little longer but I needed to go out to the store for a few things and wanted to get it over with as early as possible. I would have set my alarm and went even earlier but one of the places I needed to go doesn't open until 8:00am.

I didn't have much recall. I recalled a brief fragment of some sexual content. I have a vague memory of waking up at one point recalling another dream but fell back to sleep before taking notes, unfortunately.  And I don't remember what it was.

It's about 5:30pm as I type this and I'm already pretty sleepy. I might end up getting to sleep early. I'm not going to try and stay up all night like I tried last night. But If I get to sleep early enough I wouldn't mind getting up around 1 2 or 3am so as to have a long day to enjoy tomorrow. But I will probably try to sleep long enough to get some kind of recall, hopefully. We'll see.

Thursday/November/21/2019

The second day back to work felt a little better. Back on my game more, and feeling just back into the old routine. I had kind of an odd sense of not even  having a two week break. As if I just skipped ahead through time and my two weeks off never even happened. That's kind of shitty actually.

I lay down to sleep a little after midnight. My back was feeling fine so I just lay down to sleep. But I woke up at 3:00 am and my back was killing me. I had a feeling that if I didn't spend some time in my chair I wouldn't be feeling too good at work tonight. So I spent a couple hours sleeping in my chair and wasn't sleeping too good. But when I first got into my chair(with heating pad behind my back) it felt really good a sigh of relief on my back.   I just got up about 6:30am. I might have tried sleeping a little longer but I need to get to the bank this morning. Will possibly have time for an hour or two nap when I get back. We'll see.

Gas Pump

I recalled a dream about pulling up to a gas pump at a gas station. There is another guy with a car that looks like a Mustang. The color of his car is something between orange and yellow. I was thinking that it's kind of strange  how the guy does not seem to know how to use a gas pump. For one thing he has parked too far away from the pump so that he is unable to reach the gas tank on his car with the pump hose. It's kind of comical watching him trying to get the gas pump hose to stretch far enough to reach into his gas tank And it's coming up a little short.

I forget about him and I have a gas can that I want to fill.  I seem to be getting gas for a recreational vehicle. Snowmobile or four wheeler or dirt bike maybe. There is some gas in the gas can already and it's dark as if it has oil mixed in with it. Like has to be done for the dirt bikes.

Getting the gas for the recreational vehicles must have brought my brother to mind since I used to always go riding motocross and snowmobiling with my brother. The dream kind of shifts as I pick up my phone and I'm looking for my brothers number to call him. On my phone I find some video of a party that he and I were apparently at. As teens we often went to parties together so maybe that's where that came in.

And as what often happens in dreams the video becomes the dream and the gas station is gone and I'm now at the party with my brother. And for some reason the dream leads to having a discussion with my brother about going in on  buying new house together and being roommates. And maybe renting one of the rooms out to my step dad. Which sounded like a nice idea in the dream.

Friday/November/22/2019

I slept from about 11:30pm until my alarm went off at 5:00am, hit snooze a couple of times. I had a brief WBTB  letting my taking my friend outside around 2:00am I think if I remember right. I work the morning shift so that's why the alarm was set. It as actually the first time that I didn't want to wake up in I don't know how long. Slept in the tent laying down and was sleeping really well, back isn't doing too bad so that is good.

I woke up once with a little recall and stupidly didn't take notes on what it was. And can't remember exactly what it was. I have a couple of random images in my head from stuff during snooze time but nothing I can piece together, at least as of yet. I don't have time to write much anyways, since I have to start getting ready for work.

Despite my lack of recall right now.(Something still might come back to me.)  I'm actually feeling pretty good about my dreaming at the moment. I should be able to get more sleep tonight. Hopefully a little better recall. Last night I was conked out pretty well, probably because of not sleeping very well the last couple of nights.

So strange. As I'm sitting here trying to recall something, this song comes on, lol.

"Little pictures in your mind. Pictures behind your eyes. You can see them if you try. I want you to try and remember. Remember Remember Remember. "

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6EJ2iPWfCA

Saturday/November/23/2019

I slept from around 8:30pm until almost 3:30am I had my alarm set for 4:00am but just decided to get up when I saw it was almost 3:30. I slept pretty good, not in my chair. My back is starting to be doing a little bit better, I think. My little friend surprisingly didn't even wake me to go out. I should have done a short WBTB anyways, but I actually forgot to.

recall  was not very good but I could tell I was dreaming a lot. I could feel a lot of dreams really close to the surface every time I woke up briefly. Sitting quietly for a while after waking and going over the feeling of my unrecalled dreams I was able to bring back a little fragment.

Mud Swamp

I'm walking out into a wilderness area and I'm  looking for something in particular. I can't remember what I was I was looking for. I've been trying to recall what was going on before this point but so far have not been able to. I come upon a sort of dried up swamp/marsh. The water is gone but there is a lot of mud. I see a guy walking through the mud. He is sinking down to his knees in the mud.

( In the dream I'm remembering a time in reality that actually happened. I was really young and a friend and I found a dried up pond that was a huge mud pit very similar to what I am seeing in the dream. He and I went walking out into the mud pit, sinking up to our knees in the mud. And the mud sucking our shoes right off our feet. An adult came out of a nearby  house yelling at us to get out of there. Warning that the mud might suck us down to our deaths. My friend and I, not even considering that the mud might get that deep kind of freaked out at the possibility and got out of there as quickly as we could lol.)

Anyways in the dream I'm watching this guy wade through the mud and I wonder if he is in danger of being sucked down to his death. And I watch as he starts pulling out and collecting  cattails. (plants) I somehow know that he is collecting the cattails for eating, as I remember from once reading a wilderness survival book that cattails are an edible plant.

Sunday/November/24/2019

I went to sleep about 7:30pm in good spirits ready to have a good night of sleep.  I slept really good until 9:30pm when I woke. I had recall of a work dream that I don't feel like describing. And I woke up feeling like shit. Stuffed up sinuses, headache, sore throat. I was just really uncomfortable and was having a hard time falling back to sleep.

By midnight I still had not fallen back to sleep, tossing and turning and thinking about shit in the past I've not thought about in a long time. I decided to pick up my phone and watch some Netflix on it for a while and see if it would help me relax enough to fall back to sleep. It seemed to help. I watched about a half an hour of some random movie that popped up when  I brought the app up until I started feeling a little sleepy again. Then turned it off and closed my eyes just trying to relax.

I fell back asleep until about 3:30am and decided to get up for a while.

At first I didn't recall anything but after a little bit a dream came back to me about being at an interview for some strange new job that I had no idea how to do. It's a difficult to describe dream, some weird stuff going on. The job was going to pay a lot more than what I'm making now. They were going to teach me how to be a clothing designer or some weird shit, how to design and make extravagant outfits for the rich and famous. I remember feeling both excited and bad about learning this new trade. I felt badly about having to give my current employer the news I'll be quitting because I know how much I'm need in my current position. And I like my boss quite a bit. So I felt badly about the idea of telling him I was going to be leaving him hanging.

After that I stayed awake for a while and went back to sleep sitting in my chair in my kitchen around 7:00am until about 9:30am. I recalled a vivid dream about family BS that I don't feel like writing out.

I still might sleep more.

Monday/November/25/2019

I slept from about 5:00pm until about 12:30am. I decided to sleep in my chair again even though  my back is okay enough I think, to lay down. I actually slept a lot better than the previous night laying down. Except after a while my knees were starting to get sore.

I had the best night of recall since starting my journal up again in October. Each time I woke up all night I was recalling what I was dreaming. A lot of it is still jumbled up difficult to describe dreams though.

No Fear

This is one of the more interesting dreams of the night. Very vivid.  Interesting, to note again, a complete lack of fear in a would be scary situation even without lucidity.

I'm in a building. It's a haunted place I guess. The first thing I recall is a woman. Somehow I know she is a psychic. I see her gesturing to a wall. Indicating a supernatural presence. There is some type of evil entity taking up residence in this building.

I look to the wall where the woman is gesturing. I see a dark blob like shape moving through the wall and I get a threatening vibe from it. I'm more annoyed and angered with this dark entity that thinks to cause me harm. I have no fear of it at all.

I see the dark shape becoming blacker and blacker as it moves. I realize the deeper black shade is indicating the entity is becoming more angry and volatile. I'm amused, I don't care.

I kick at the shape in the wall. I'm not sure what I'm trying to achieve, but I'm at least showing the entity that it's presence doesn't scare me. The black shape separates itself from the wall  and floats out into the air. The shape takes on the form of a large black skull. I reach out and grab a hold of each side of the skull with each hand and slam it forcefully to the floor.

On impact the skull explodes into black smoke and slowly dissipates.

I wake up for a moment here and jot down a little note in my notebook.  I simply write down the word "Ghost" just to remind myself of the dream in case of forgetting later.

I fall quickly back to sleep and back into the dream. Where I again encounter the same entity. Much like before, the entity is a black shape moving through the walls.

This time rather than attacking the entity, I challenge it to try and cause me harm. I explain out loud to the entity that I have no fear of it and I don't believe it has any power at all to cause me any harm. I tell the entity that it is free to try. I will passively allow it to try and do harm to me, show me, prove to me that it has the ability. Try and make me believe that it can.

I watch then, as the dark shape of the entity moves across the wall and then down along the floor until it is in front of my feet on the floor. The black shape takes on the creepy looking form of black oily humanoid arms reaching up out of the black mass on the floor in  front of me.

I stand motionless, fearless, as these arms, hands, grab hold of my legs, apparently attempting to suck out my life force. And I can remember reading on the forums people that fear and believe such things in dreams are trying to suck off their energy. I don't share this belief in the slightest and continue to allow it to try. A few moments pass with nothing remarkable enough happening to cause me to feel like I'm actually in any kind of danger. This thing just grabbing at my legs. And the dream fades away and I wake.

Tuesday/November/26/2019

Not as much recall last night. I don't have much time. There is a snow storm going on outside(in reality) and I'm going to have to go out there with a shovel and see how bad it is and figure out if I'm going to be able to get to work and back today. I have a little car that doesn't get through the snow very well. Also I'm on back streets that don't get plowed right away, and I'm also on a cul-de-sac that doesn't get plowed right away either. So it gets frustrating when it storms and the snow gets too deep. Last year was bad, I had to walk out to the main road many times and wait for a ride from my boss. Luckily I don't work that far from where I live, but it seems far enough anyways when I can't get through the snow. And by the looks of things, it might be snowing for the next three or four days, gah...

Skate Park

Basically just a fragment but a vivid one about being  at a skate-board park like something out of the X-games. It was fun, I was taking some practice runs on the ramps and getting enough air off of them to do flips and tricks. I was practicing and getting ready to begin a competition with several other skate-boarders at the park. I wake up before the competition truly begins. Too bad, this one had a good potential of lucidity had the dream continued and if I ended up getting some ridiculous air off one of the ramps. But I'm not sure if that situation will get me lucid as easily as it was doing before, at least yet, since I'm out of practice.

Wednesday/November/27/2019

I'm officially sick I guess. It started hitting me pretty hard during my work shift last night and I completely lost my voice. Thankfully I was able to get out of work early last night. And it's Thanksgiving day as I write this.(I always date my dreams as the previous days night of dreaming  since I'd be recording Wednesdays nights dreams it's dated as Wednesday.)

I'm thankful that I don't have to work ad it's very quiet and I can just rest and sleep because I feel like shit. Hopefully I'll feel somewhat better by tomorrow going back to work.

I had no significant recall other than my INRALD (I'm not really awake lucid dream) moment that I recorded in my WILDing Journal. And some other brief HI stuff

I took some cold medicine before  going to sleep I'm not sure if that contributed to not recalling much of anything or not, or maybe just  maybe being sick in general sometimes makes recall difficult.

I was able to get to work okay. Thankfully the snow stopped early, and surprisingly the plow came through before I had to leave so the roads were not too bad. But there is still supposed to be a couple of more snowstorm filled days before the weekend is over. Hopefully I won't have any trouble getting out. I hate when I have to call and say I can't get my car out because of the snow. My next vehicle is going to be something more snow worthy...

Thursday/November/28/2019

Still pretty sick. I slept from about 8:00pm to 6:30am. I slept really well, I was out, and the time went too  quickly. I feel like I could keep sleeping and probably would if I didn't have to work today. Not very good recall again.

Fragment

Some HI basically. Should Probably  be in my WILDing Journal.  but as mention nt feeling well and don't feel like making another post  for it.

As I was first drifting off to sleep I experience this bizarre little non lucid dreamlet. I wish  could remember the detail a little better. When I came out of it it was kind of fuzzy/barely recalled. I was watching some events like a movie and for some reason which were clear in the dream but I don't remember now, I get sucked into this other dimension. I remember a light blue color associated with this other realm. While I'm there I get reverted to an infant. I'm a little baby and get sent back into this world as a baby. But once back in this real I begin to morph into a large beats. Still watching like a movie I watch myself grow into this large hairy Bigfoot looking creature with red glowing eyes. As I watch this thing as myself walk along for a moment I come out of it thinking "Whoa what was that?" I even sat up and took a note on it to make sure I wouldn't forget. But  didn't need to look at the notes.

Fragment

After sleeping about three hours that felt like a few minutes. I wake up and bring my friend outside. I had no recall. But again as I sit back in  my comfy reclining camping/lawn chair and begin to drift off I experience another little non lucid dreamlet. Again I'm watching like a movie.

I'm married and I'm a Part of this political family. My wife and my children are on a trip to the white house to spend time there and with the president. (I'm not sure where this came from as I have no interest in politics or visiting the white house. Maybe it was influenced by the fact that I recently watched a show called "Designated Survivor" on Netflix with Kiefer Southerland. Where he gets thrown into the position of president.)

Anyways, as I watch like a movie the events of my family arriving at the white house and settling into the rooms they are being assigned to.  My awareness drifts to another room where I'm apparently invisible and I'm watching a coupe of politicians in power  discussing my family. And some plot that they are planning against my wife and I. The I drift back awake.

Work Fragment

After I wake around 6:30am I sit there for a while trying to bring anything else back. I'm able to bring back a work fragment where I'm back at my previous place of employment. (That no longer exists.) My old boss is there and I'm having kind of a nostalgic moment in the dream. And I'm telling the people there that are working for my old boss what I great guy he is to work for.

Friday/November/29/2019

I slept from about 11:30pm to about 4:15am. I had my alarm set for 4:30am since I have to work this morning but I woke up fifteen minutes before it went off and I just decided to get up. I'm not feeling any better yet. If anything I'm feeling worse this morning. I didn't take any of the cold medicine (Dayquil) before going to sleep because I wanted to save it to get through my work shifts and I don't want to over do it with the stuff. I've probably abused my body enough with the Ibuprofen I take when back is acting up badly. So I'm trying to be careful not to take too much.

I didn't sleep as well as the previous night. And still not much recall. I do remember dreaming about trying to fall asleep. I keep thinking that there was something about driving my car too. There must have been. As I typed that something tried to pop into my head about flat tires. But then slipped away. I should be able to get a better nights sleep tonight. I'm going to try and get to sleep as early as I can when I get home this afternoon.

Saturday/November/30/2019

I got off work early and managed to get to sleep about 5:30pm. I was completely out until about 11:00pm. When I woke up and I had just a little disjointed recall of images. I was dreaming about trying to sleep again and recording dreams on Mortal Mist. Still feeling pretty sick. It took me while to fall back to sleep.

I finally fell back to sleep sometime between 12:00am and 1:00am. I woke up again just before 3:00am feeling all the dreams in my head but unable to recall them. But as I was drifting off to sleep I had some little dream that I was able to recall.

Elder Scrolls

As I begin to drift off I find myself in an Elder Scrolls Game without lucidity. For some reason I think it's supposed to be the Morrowind game I had on the original Xbox rather than the Skyrim VR  game that I have on my PS4.

But anyways I'm in some underground chamber with a body of water like a pool. The walls of the chamber have kind of a dirty golden color. I find a corridor and make way down the corridor, all the walls have that same dirty golden color to them. I come across some enemy soldier. I don't remember the moment very well. But I remember a moment of combat and defeating the enemy.  It was as if the soldier was trying to keep me there, like a prisoner. not wanting me to escape.

I move along and soon find a doorway that opens into the world.  I have a moment of magical anticipation as the door swings open and  I can see a hint of the outside world.  I see a couple of characters from the fantasy land  standing around out side. Unfortunately, I come out of it before the dream can continue.

I think I might have been dreaming about Spider-Man. Because I saw I Spider-Man picture and for a moment I felt like some Spider-Man dream was trying to come back to me.

Recap For November 2019

It could have been better. Recall has been off and on. Was thinking about dreaming in dreams a few times. Cut back on the caffeine a lot. I gave up the coffee and now I'm down to just a small does of caffeine in the morning. And I'm feeling more relaxed and focused. Also in a better place mentally at the moment.

The last few days recall has not been very good, probably has a lot to do with being sick. But over all I'm feeling pretty good about where I'm at. I feel like once I get over being sick things will begin to improve more. Hopefully December will be a good month and I'll be able to start out the new year in a good place.

Sunday/December/1/2019

Still not feeling too good. Went to sleep about 6:00pm and slept off and on most of the night and into most of the day as well. Still not much for recall. A lot of almost recall. Just catching bits and pieces of what I was dreaming as I wake up.

The snow storms over the weekend were not nearly as bad as predicted, thankfully. The worst of it was Sunday and it was just enough snow to make the roads nice and slippery for the drive home but not deep enough to get stuck in.

Monday/December/2/2019

I slept a lot. Still not very good recall.  I'm feeling just a little less out of it at the moment, I think. Hopefully it's a sign that I'm coming to the tail end of this cold. I woke up in the middle of the night with a cough that didn't want to stop so I got up for a little while, and then spent the rest of the time sleeping in my reclining chair where I slept pretty good without the cough. I did something at least.

Fragment

I'm on a wide snow covered mountain ledge. I have a sense that I'm in a video game again, maybe Skyrim again. There are missiles being fired at me from I don't know where. At first I'm trying to dodge this way and that to avoid being hit by the missiles.

I'm carrying a sword and after a few dodges I begin swinging my sword at the incoming missiles to deflect them away rather than dodge. Suddenly an unknown friend makes an appearance. My friend drives up in a little off road buggy and gets out of the buggy.

I tell him that he should make for the near by cave that I know is just behind me and take shelter from the incoming missiles. He and I reach the cave together. The entrance of the cave is covered and sealed by a large hinged door. I have the sense that there are more people inside the cave system. I come out of the dream just as the door begins to swing open.

Tuesday/December/3/2019

Lions Fragment

I'm standing outside of a house. The house has something like a crawl space below it which is mostly covered by ornamental woodwork. There is a section that is open and I can see under the house. And under the house I can see that there are several lions lounging around. Someone is with me (I'm not sure who it is) and I comment to then person about the lions under the house.

Tuesday/December/31/2019

Slept six hours without much recall. Remembered a cigarette fragment. After being awake for a few hours I went back to sleep but only very briefly, maybe a few minutes to half an hour and had a little recall.

Creepy

I hear someone in the house upstairs. I think it's someone I know but they shouldn't be here. I look up the stairs and call their name. No answer. I call their name again. No answer. I try again louder. Sill no answer. But I can easily hear them moving around up there. I flip the light-switch on the wall. Nothing happens. I'm thinking that who ever is in the house must have done something to make the light not work. I wake trying to figure it out. (Note to self any time lights are not acting right do an RC.)

If I have time I'm going to go back to sleep for a little while.

Recap For December 2019

Started out the month with a bad cold and was losing progress. But ended up making some progress regardless of that. Recall is still too sporadic. But ended up having one good full blown lucid. A brief moment of lucidity. And some partial lucidity. So that's over all more progress than October or November. Going in the right direction at least.

Now we begin the first month of the new year. Really need to get off my need and want to be up at 2:00am all the time. And completely get off the caffeine so that I can just sleep, better focus on dreaming, and do the right kind of WBTB's the way that I used to do them in the past.

I want to, and been trying to work on my WILDing but it seems more often than not I'm just falling asleep. Whether I'm laying flat on my back or sitting upright in a chair hasn't been mattering. I think it's mostly because of getting older I just fall asleep easier. But maybe if I start sleeping longer periods so I'm more awake and not falling asleep so easy I will be able to make some progress with it again. Need to be awake enough so that it's an act of will power and meditation in order to make myself drift off into hypnagogia and dream scenes.

Happy New Year Caradon.

Best of luck and training for WILDing. Looking forward to reading your adventures in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

Quote from: Wędajihs on January 01, 2020, 12:27:35 PMHappy New Year Caradon.

Best of luck and training for WILDing. Looking forward to reading your adventures in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

Thanks. I hope you had a great new year. It was back to work for me. It was a  little busy but otherwise alright. I'm looking forward to reading your adventures as well.

I actually managed a little WILDnig after making that post but didn't write it down. After posting I kicked back in my chair to try and sleep a little more and had the kind of WILDing where it's like you are looking through your eyelids. I was kicked back in my chair with my eyes closed and the kitchen opened up in front of me. I was just siting there looking around the kitchen  fully lucid knowing it was a dream kitchen I was looking at. Stayed in it for a decent amount of time too, it felt pretty cool. Should have tried to get up and walk around.

Wednesday/January/1/2020

I slept from 12:30am until 2:30am and woke up from some barely remember stuff that my brother was involved in but don't really recall what it was. I went back to sleep a little later than intended 7:00am and slept until 11:00am so don't have much time but had some vivid recall in that period.

Super/Natural Tornado

In a hurry so just a basic description of the dream. I'm outside a building with several other people and there is a massive storm brewing.  The sky is churning with dark clouds. As I  watch a monstrous funnel cloud forms and reaches down from the sky like a massive finger and touches down. I get out my phone to record the event on video. But the tornado kind of loses  moments and dissipates. I'm aware however, that it's far from over. It's just begun.

From where I'm standing, in the shadow of the building behind  me I don't have the best view of wicked looking sky. So I step away from the building to try and get a better view to get video.

I see that the churning sky has opened up into a gateway into another realm. I see a lot of red color beyond the opening in the clouds. I realize that this is no natural storm but is being created by some highly evolved beings, possibly aliens, other dimensional, I'm not sure.(The dream is possibly influence by a combination of watch the movie "Doom" And also reading Wedajihs recent lucid dream.)

I realize that the intent of the tornado is to suck up us humans into this dimensional gate and people are getting sucked up into a massive  vat and their bodies physically dissolved and their consciousnesses being absorbed into some other higher level of reality that is home to these beings.

Storms, tornadoes, and nefarious beings, sounds like something my head would have conjured up for sure. That storm sounds amazing, scary but amazing. I'm always fascinated (after the fact) by the wild and wicked storms the mind can make.